Beautiful Transitions

I love having opportunities to write; big trips, new adventures, interesting events, etc. Over the past few months my life has not involved any of that. I began my new job as a Physician Assistant and... worked. Since my incredible time in Europe, I haven't been on any big trips or adventures or gone many places besides the grocery store for that matter. And yet, I have never felt a bigger call to change. I write to reflect. It amazes me that other people like to read my writing because, to me, it is an explosion of my brain on paper and I don't know why anyone would be interested in the spaghetti thoughts of my mind. For me though, writing allows me to dwell. Reflect. Contemplate and untangle. In this crazy world we live in, tons of thoughts enter our brains each day and immediately get pushed out by more "urgent" things; Paperwork to be done, a phone call to make, a social media site to scroll through. Some of these thoughts are deep and heavy and require more than just a millisecond of our time. I find that when I write, I give myself this time to dwell on the heavy thoughts I normally push out. Sometimes the thoughts I don't originally recognized as deep or meaningful end up leading me to more questions through writing and those questions lead me to more questions and on and on. Eventually, I'm unraveling this deep thought rooted inside me that I never would have known was there if I hadn't spent time dwelling on it through writing. Writing allows me to focus on dwelling and dwelling allows me to focus on changing. So I'm writing now. I'm focusing and dwelling and changing. There's been no big trip with interesting stories to tell. there's been no fun event that lead me on a crazy adventure. I'm simply living and working, but I find I still need time to dwell. It's easy to see myself changing and growing by the day when I'm in a rural village of Belize treating a sick baby. Like duh, of course this is life changing! As soon as I saw the Eiffel tower or the Vatican, my mind exploded with thoughts I knew were deep and would thrive on paper. But now? I work. I cook dinner. I run. Life is simple, but my mind is still full. So I invite anyone who's interested in this stage of my life to continue on this journey with me through my writings. Unfortunately, I don't have any captivating stories of a foreign place to share with you, but I do have some thoughts about this thing called life that maybe you'll find interesting. We all reach points of transition in our lives; From children to adults and from adults to parents etc. As I finish my schooling and enter the workforce, I feel a transition happening inside me more than ever. What kind of person do I want to be? How do I want to handle situations in my life? How do I want to treat people? What relationship do I want to have with my God at this stage? These questions seemed daunting at first, but now I realize they are presenting an opportunity for change. A change I never let myself have the time to explore until now. And a change being done in your heart by God is always, always good. I'm not in France or Italy or a 3rd world country, but I am in a life transition... and that is as beautiful a place as ever.